Side-blinded

You know those psychic people who sense when something bad is happening? Well I'm not one of them. Though at times I wish I was. I was totally caught off guard, side-blinded, awaken by what you had to say in your Blog.

This is my reaction. I know things has changed between you and I, but if you were really my friend, you'd talk to me about our situation instead of blogging it for the world to read. Call me a hypocrit right now, but I'm just playing your game.

I knew our friendship was drifting and I honestly miss you. I just thought that you had your life now and I had mine. I mean, you got your boyfriend, school, your family. I hear that you and your mom is good and I'm happy for you. Man, your life is all set right now. I can barely keep up, neither get a decent "Hi" from you anymore.

So I have a little sarcasm. I honestly didn't intend on hurting you with my words. Call it being concerned, idk? Yeah I skip, but sheeeet. It's never with you anymore. Man, remember the days when we BOTH just wanted to get outta school. Us and the rest of RWS or WBS would go and do anything together. & our parties. Remember two shots?! Ha, I'd say that was some hella good times. Smoking and drinking with Kalihi people. Girl I swear, if it wasn't for you I would have been home on myspace instead of partying and meeting some really awesome people.

I admit, I've gone over board a lot. The dance practice incident: I was stressing. & I'm sorry for putting my stress on you. And I swear I didn't see the other person without their sweats. When I did, I told them right away, after you left that day, that they couldn't practice. Fuck, I know I'm a sucky ass captain but fuck.

I don't know what else to say. I've lost our friendship long time ago. I'm sorry if I've changed. I know I'm not no good girl, but fuck, I'm tryna be. For you and I and the rest of the girls, we've drifted so damn far, idk if things could ever be the same. I know I've changed, but I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one. Man, every single day you probably have another reason to talk your shit. Honestly, I can't do shit about it. All I can say is sorry. Whatever I've said, whatever I've done, I didn't mean to hurt you. & if there's anything else you need to say, I rather you tell it to my face. Cause fucking reading it hurted like a bitch. So I'm sorry.


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