That girl in your dreams and the best friend who answered my prayers

Okay, so this is gonna be a pretty long entry so BEWARE. And I'm going FAR BACK in time, so if I get this memory wrong, I'm so sorry. LMAO. I don't have a good memory. I can barely remember what happened this morning. Well anyways, just be prepared. You're entering MAI WORLD, for real.

(Special Moment 1)
Now I don't want to put up any hopes, or let down any hopes. Tonight I felt really special and there are many reasons why. Well Lemme go back to the beginning of this year. So there's this guy. He's the most popular guy I've known. He's in every club known to Campbell. He makes people laugh for the heck of it. He's one of my best friends.

Well at the time, I thought of him as the snobbiest underclassmen who thought he knew it all. Haha, I was wrong. He did think he knew it all, but he wasn't close to being a snob. I knew him through a friend of mine, but I never got to know him, know him. It was until the spring retreat "Inside out" that I got close.

Me and Him both won the chance to be sponsored for retreat. That meant we only had to pay half the price. Of course there was a catch; we had to help anvee with setting up for a YAMS social. He was a sophomore and I was a junior. We were too young for YAMS so instead we layed down on the stage at OLPH and watched the stars. (I'm pretty sure that was the moment. If its not, I'm so sorry!)

So like I said, No hopes up or down. To that guy: I know who that girl in your dreams are. If I'm wrong, then OMG that is sooo SHAME. Lol. But I'm pretty sure I hit the spot. I love you to death, but not in the way you have felt. But you know what? I'd totally spend the whole night til dawn lying down on the stage staring at the stars with you again. You don't know it, but you made me feel really special tonight. I totally forgot about that one night and just remembering it made me so happy for some really strange reason! Yeah I'm lame I know. I just wanna say I'm sorry that I can't make your dream come true. Maybe not in that way at least. But just know that I really do love you sooo much. You mean sooo much to me. I hope you know that. (:

(Special moment 2)
There's never a broken friendship that never wants to be fixed. If you pray for it, God WILL make it happen. Even through your doubts, he'll surprise you. Tonight he finally answered one of my prayers. I prayed for this moment for a while now and I was on the verge of giving up. It's just how God works.

So I've prayed to see this very special friend of mine come to church. He felt that he didn't need to go to lifeteen to love and worship God. My opinions was different and I learned that you can't change the way a person feels, but you can help them change. Well before that I really thought I could change that way this person felt. He was hard-headed and I was hard-headed. We ended up getting into a fight this past weekend. I didn't want to talk to him and it seemed like he didn't want to solve the issue.

Have you ever had that feeling of when your so shocked, it feels like your heart stopped beating? Well I had that feeling tonight at church. I'm sitting in church and I turn around and right at the entrance of the church I see him. It was a mixture of happiness and anger. I was sooooooooo damn happy he was here, yet I was mad because he was probably just here because we got into the fight. But all that mattered was that he was at church.

Later that night, we still didn't talk. He seemed like he got into a fight with his girlfriend after church. Everyone told me to comfort him, but I just couldn't do it. I wasn't strong enough to be the better person. It was at the end of lifenight that we came together. We gathered into a circle and he put his arm around me. We sang "Hail Mary" and I turned to him and said thanks for coming. I'll admit, I teared. You may not be able to relate to me, but having my best friend finally come to lifenight, through sooo many attempts and let downs of him coming, was the best feeling ever. I really thought we wasn't ever going to be friends again. God is just funny like that. (: And I love it.

Well this is a hella long entry and I'm too lazy to edit and check my grammer and stuff so deal with it. CIAO homie.