Damn, why can't I just shut up?! Why do I have to open my mouth and say something that shouldn't have been said? And when I do, why does something bad always come out from it?
Chances: many people don't mind taking them. They don't mind risking what may happen. They don't care what may happen. They're not scared of what may happen. But me? I'm frightened. I'm terrified to death. I do care when I shouldn't and I don't care when I should. And risks? That word is not apart of my vocabulary. MAILYN doesn't that risk.
Yet I do and say a lot of things that hurt people. Sometimes I just don't think. I do things in life without thinking about how other people may feel. I act without thinking about the reaction. I start without knowing the ending. And even if I do know where this may end up, I still do it without thinking to. Shit, I don't even know if I'm making any sense right now!
OMG the pressure! I work the worst in pressure. I make more mistakes, I do more stupid things, and I act more without thinking. It's best to avoid me during times like these, just a fair warning.
There's something I'd like to say, but right now I feel its better if I don't. Don't worry, in month's time we'll be able to laugh about this, you wait and see. My point is, if I've ever hurt you (anyone in general) I'm sorry. If I've broken a promise, said something I shouldn't have, done something I shouldn't have, let you down in any way, irritated you, yelled at you for no reason, make you feel stupid, made you feel hopeless, made you feel like there was something more between us and that there could have been a chance, but said its better if we were just friends...I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to and I regret not even thinking about how you feel.
Seriously, if there is any other things that I did to hurt you let me know cause I wanna change. I'm the type of person who is totally afraid of change, but this is one thing that I would risk risking. (LMAO. does risk risking make sense?!)
To this special someone: Best friends make best lovers. Keep being the best friend that you are to everyone and that special best friend will realize how great of a lover you can be. And if not, there's always priesthood ;D (haha just kidding)
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HAHAHAHAHAHAHA second blog to crack me up. just because you kids say the funniest things that remind me of high school :] Mai, if you feel you need to take a risk... ask God and if He says, trust in Him to guide you through it ;]
ReplyDeletebut i was laughing at "best friends make best lovers" are you sure about that?! hahaha i think not ;]