Butterfly effect

So this blog is a continuation to my last blog. I think I ended saying that Jr and I were in my car and I was suppose to be home by 10 but it was already 11 and we just started eating. Well we didn't get down and dirty if thats what you're thinking. I'm not saying we're not like that though. Lets just say we take advantage of our time kissing than talking.

But that night we talked. I believe we didn't kiss execpt for saying goodbye. That same day during school, we were in mrs. quisano's class. Jr was doodling on a sheet of paper while we were both listening to his MP3 and I was Dj choosing the songs to play. Every song that I chose were songs that reminded me of our relationship. Some couples would have just one song that they called their own. Jr and I have a CD full of songs that we call our own. Actually, around our one month Jr burned me a CD of those songs. That was the CD that I took forever looking for that day we went to Grace bible. I couldn't drive without it! But I had to. -_____- It's funny. Songs that strangers who don't even know who we are wrote words in music that my heart longs to express. Lol Corny but for real! Every time I listen to "our songs" I get butterflies all throughout my body.

Well I got that same butterfly effect as I watched Jr doodle on his sheet of paper. It's not like I never did have this feeling with Jr before. Actually I always have this feeling with Jr. Every time I'm in the car with him, I'd turn my body to face him and just stare as he drives. Nothing else would run through my mind, NOTHING. As I watched Jr doodle a picture of our duck, Paul, I slowly caress his knee. It doesn't distract him from his concentration, but I don't care, that's not my intention.

I spot the song "Unbelieveable" on his MP3 and I press play. As Craig David sings that words that express how I feel that moment, I start to feel my eyes water. Yeah, I was going to cry. Big deal! I was on my period. I was emotional! But I had to suck it up, people were around us. We distant ourselves from our group of friends who were just a few feet away. They were talking about Prom, a conversation that Jr and I should have been apart of but we weren't. Not like it mattered. I was in my own world staring at him. That butterfly effect just didn't want to go away, until the bell rang.

So we're sitting my car, laughing, talking, smiling. And once again that butterfly feeling comes back. I don't even have to be WITH him to get that feeling. Talking to him on the phone is amazing. I mean, I get excited when I see his number pop out of my cell phone screen. And his voice is so sexy! Lol. Well I'm gonna have to get use to just hearing his voice. He's away for a competition and when he comes back I'll be out on an FCCLA showcase in windward side. Friday I have an interview with the senator and there is no school so I gotta finish prom stuff. We won't see each other til prom!

But my first day without him was pretty good. I'll tell you why....in my next blog. lol. I like how I'm keeping you curious! (;<

Final thought: Every cause has it's effect. Mines just happen to be catapillars hatching from it's cacoon.