Religious

Someone who is religious is a good role model, follows whatever their religion tells them to do, and are passionate and involved in their faith. I, who many believe is one of the most religious people that they know, is not religious. Religion has become a reputation for me. Not that I am ashamed of being a catholic, I truly am proud. It's just the high expectation and standards that come with being known as a religious person.

I am nowhere close to perfect, not even close to being a goody two shoe or even an inch from decent. I am bad, dirty as the bottom of your shoes. I'm the gum under your desk. I am aids, lol okay scratch that but you get the picture? I am a sinner, bad to the bone! I am nowhere near religious, I just admire God oh so truly. And that has given me the reputation of being religious. & now I've become more of a sinner with this weight of expectation that everyone has for me. They expect me to not drink at parties, not to smoke a cigarette, not to skip school, not to get a tattoo. Okay it's not like I do that kinda things anyways, but when I joke around about doing that I hear the same reaction: "you can't do that, you go to church!"

On myspace there is this picture tag thing that has different characters with different personalities such as funniest, dumbest, most adventurous etc. Every single person who tagged me on that, tagged me as the religious one. Serious, if there was a religious category in the school's yearbook hoss election, I would have been voted, not for the most friendliest like last year, but most religious. Like I said, I am not ashamed of being "religious," I just don't like the solid, hard rock that I have to carry along with it. (I was going to say something about carrying a heavy load and Jesus Christ, talking about being religious, but I'd be totally not proving this point of my blog)

I guess I can never get rid of this reputation. I kinda had it coming. It was good at first, but now it has given me more stress. Or maybe its just because school is coming to a close and I have no idea what to do with my life after high school. Lol, become a nun? (not proving another point!! >_<)

Final thought: I think I should change my banner up there above. Talk about proving this point in my blog, right? O_O