My apologies

I didn't realize how much people I have hurted the past few days because of the decision I've made. It's not very often that I usually go for what I want without thinking first. Well I've thought about it, but when I made my decision I wasn't thinking much of the ones that I was going to hurt.

For this one guy--thanks for understanding my situation, in a way. Though you talk too much, I took your words to the heart and it made things a bit better between me and you. Seriously, ever since...yeah...I have been avoiding you. (I do that a lot, I've noticed) I honestly didn't intend on letting you down that way, but hey! Now you've met this wonderful girl who, I believe, is a wonderful choice. You've also made me proud! Cause what we had wasn't just a waste. My smooth moves rubbed off on you. Lol! But I'm really sorry for giving you this 'smack in the face.' I wanted to tell you myself when I was really sure of this decision I made, but others got to you first. You're a really great guy and super incredible. But to tell you ahead of time: if I'm doing something stupid, please tell me. Cause you and this other friend of mine are the only ones who can really say it to my face. I'd really appreciate that (:

To my best friend--I knew how you felt and I totally didn't take that to consideration. I was a bit (a lot) foolish and I'm sorry I couldn't make you happy. I'm so glad how much you've included God in your life. He has a plan for you & I'm sorry if I ever made you feel like that plan included me. Don't get me wrong, I know we're going to be BEST friends til EVER. Your really all that I need right now, my best friend back. & I'm happy that our friendship comes first before any other kind of relationship. I wanted to tell you how I felt, but I didn't want to hurt you. But still I did by not telling you. I just hope you could forgive me. I love you best friend.

To my other best friend--though I have left other people outta my decision, you were the only one that I included. I honestly didn't want to tell you. I figured I could let this feeling of mine pass like they usually do. But I did tell you. & though you probably strongly dislike me right now, I am so sorry. I'm sorry I hadn't told you earlier. I'm sorry that I've probably ruined our friendship. I'm sorry if things doesn't get better. The damaged is done, but I've been wondering why. I would have avoided my feelings and moved on, but someone literally pushed me to tell you. Everything happens for God's reason, I'm just sorry it had to be like this. Excuse my ignorance. I'm willing to regain our friendship, but I'm expecting that it will take a while. & I understand. Just let me know, cause this apology isn't the end.

Yeah, another best friend of mine--I have been throwing shit at you and you have been throwing it back. I'm sorry for venting all my drama to you. I'm sorry and thankful. Though it was partially your fault for this (lol jk), I'm thankful. You are the only one who can really throw things at me, things that I am to hard-headed to notice. For our past: I'm sorry about the malasada incident, I'm sorry that I've always been a bitch to you, and I'm sorry that I'm so hard-headed. Lol. But thanks for still being my friend.

Besides all this drama, I am Happy. So damn happy, even I'm surprised! Who knew this would all be happening?! It took a lot of sacrafice, but I'm content. Though many of you believe that this will just be another passing feeling, we beg to think otherwise. Or prove it to you, Idk, whichever comes first. As of now, God had thrown me signs, obsticles, blessings and warnings. Who knows what he'll throw at me next. (A new car I hope)

A bag full of drama: $0
This special feeling: bag full of drama + $0
Being content: this special feeling + $0
God doing His miracles: PRICELESS
No need cash in Mai World.